Fever fever go away.Little Najwa wants to play.

Last night Najwa start having high fever.Temperature reach 39 deg.This is red alarm already.Its very hard for her to have fever..but once she got it, it always dragging long.What makes me really worry is how i want to give her medicine. She is such a big fighter when it come to medicine. Last time she got fever, she was admitted at GMC.The nurse need to wrap her with blanket and hold her tight just to gave her medicine. That was last time when she is about 1 year plus. Can you imagine the 3 years old girl struggle...My husband also nearly surrender. at last she vomit all the medicine plus what ever she ate that evening.

Her temperature still burning.She refuse to take medicine.She said the medicine hurt her.I tried to mix it with her milk. She is so smart, she knows the milk taste different so she refuse to drink the milk.I just wipe her with wet towel the whole night.Hope the temperature will go down. However she keep crying.Maybe she feel uncomfortable with the cold water.
This morning she want to take shower, Its a good way to cool down. She seems better after the shower. She drink her milk and watch TV.Then she vomit again. Now she said that the milk hurt her...ayyooo...Ill bring her to the clinic today.For now ill monitor her temperature first.It was raining outside. So ill wait untill the rain stop only go to clinic.

Now she just sleeping. I miss the active Najwa. She never sleep like this. Always active and ask a lot of question. Now she said to me that she cannot talk because she is tired and want to sleep.Mama so sad when you sick like this.Get well soon baby. Mama love you.

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Najwa

Najwa is my eldest daughter. She was born together with the greatest happiness to me and my hubby. We are very blessed with this smart and cheeky little princess. I was breastfeeding her exclusively for 6 month, After that I only breast feed her during the night.

Now she already 3 years old. She getting smarter and always makes us proud. We expose her with English since she was a baby. We want her to grew up and talk good English. Both of us always talk in English with her all the time especially my hubby. We also encourage her to watch TV. Yes…we encourage her to watch TV…especially The Playhouse Disney Channel. The cartoon all in English, so she can develop her vocabulary on her own. We are working parent, most of her time spend with my mother in law. Since we still want her to speak and understand English. We let her watch educational cartoon such as mickey mouse club house, little Einstein, wonder pet, etc..Now she can talk and understand English with a lot of vocabulary.

I was shock when I heard she singing along when she listen to an English song on the radio.Down,down,down by lil wayne. I know that her English will be much more better than me. Najwa Im proud of you. Show good example to your little sister Balqis.

The queen of my heart

Yesterday I went back to my hometown to meet with my parent. Both of them very old and not well especially my father. He always had a minor stroke last few days and his memory getting worst. He can’t even remember how to go to toilet, how to eat and he can’t even recognize us their own children. Sometimes he can’t even recognize my mom who 24/7 by his side taking care of him.

Currently, both of them stay with my younger brother and my elder brother. Both of them working and only come back home at night. So the whole day my mom alone is taking care of my father.

Since he cannot remember most of the thing he starts to act like a baby. My mom needs to monitor him to make sure he did not fall and hurt himself. He can’t even walk properly. My sister bought him a wheel chair to help my mom bring him to toilet when he cannot walk.

Last 2 month before I deliver my baby he can’t even move. My mom needs to carry him every morning to give him a shower. To make it worst he demand to take shower 2 – 3 time everyday due to the hot weather now. My mom really suffers, but she still takes good care of him. She said it her sacrifice. What make me sad is my father said he don’t want to take care of my mom if she sick. I know he don’t even know what he said, but I still feel bad you know.

I am very close with my mom. I love her so much. I always ask her to come and stay with me so that I can take care of her. I can’t go back and stay with them. I have family here. I know my mom understands. She said that it feel more comfortable for her to stay in her own house. But I cannot help my self to feel sad every time I think of her.

This is my beautiful mom with her SIL.My mom wearing green baju kurung. She is so pretty rite.


She had gone thru a lot since she is a little girl. Life was hard back than .We are not from a fortunate family. We only have enough to eat and nothing more to spare. But she never complains. She gave all of us what we need. She thought us to accept what ever we had. Do not ask for more than what we have. I still remember when I was a teenagers, I also want to wear nice cloth. All my friend has jeans, nice t shirt and blouse. I ask my mom to get me all those thing. I still remember what she told me that time.’ Mak bukan orang senang.Kita tak banyak duit macam org lain.Kalau nak pakai elok-elok hang kena belajar rajin2.Nanti dah kerja bagus2, gaji banyak , beli la apa yang hang nak.Masa tu tak dak sapa nak larang”.And I never ask for more after that. I just study hard and make sure I can go to uni and get good job.

This is My parent during my Convo. Both so tired but still so excited to celebrate my convocation .This is also the big day for them. At this time my father still healthy. I really miss this moment, he cried, hug me and tell how proud he is.This is 6 years ago.

My mother breast fed me for 4 years. May be that’s why im so close and attached with her. She still take care of me same as what she did when I was a little girl. Still buy me cloth, cook my favorite food, hand feed me and pat me to sleep even until now when I come home and visit her. May be it is me who sometime forget her when im so busy with my daily work. She never miss to call me everyday. I will feel something missing if I did not get a cal from her. I’m so lucky that I still have my mom to share my life and meet with my babies. The best this is, my mom took care of me during my confinement for Najwa. She did everything for me that make me felt like a princess. She took care of me and my baby .for 44days with all her heart. She cook, clean my baby and she even stay up at night to take care of Najwa every time she cries. Oh! Mak, how I can thank you of all those thing you done for me.

I don’t know why, every time I think of my moms sacrifices and the hard thing she had gone thru, I’m so touch and feel like crying. I always have tears in the corner of my eyes every time I think of her. I feel like crying every time I look at her picture. It because I really want to be by her side at this time to took care of her, but I Cant. There are a lot of reasons. I think I’m not a good daughter. My mom always there for me all my life, but I always away when she needs me. This will be the biggest regret in my life.

Im proud of her and I want to be like her. I love you Mak.

Jalan-Jalan weekend

At last my hubby get his haircut today.After claiming that he looks like Wolverine for a month, only today he manage to get his hair cut. Non just me who complain about his hair, his friend also seems a little bit bother with his look..hahaha..

Since this month is Fathers day and not to forgotten my hubby's birthday,i want to get a good present for him.However we are not the type of couple that celebrate event (bday,mothers day,fathers day etc...).We only celebrate our baby's birthday..hahhaaa.ok ok ...back to topic.We went for shopping and I manage to get him a pair of shoe...Yeayyyy!!!!

My hubby will always spend for me and the kids, but he never want to spend for himself.Especially clothes, shoe...that kind of stuff.He is wearing the same shoe more than a year...and it already torn...my goodness.When he walk we can see his toe.He also keep complaining that his feet hurt every day.I know it because of the shoe he is wearing. So I get him a pair of new shoe.Hopefully he loves it and his feet hurt no more.If it still hurt, I still willing to give him a nice foot massage as always......huhuhu!!!

We spend 3 hours in Perangin mall for the shoe and we went to Kedah road afterward to meet with his Grandma.This is the first time Grandma meet with Balqis.She is not well so she cannot come to see the baby.She is so happy to meet us.This Year untill June, grandma already got 4 super grandkids...what a big family..

Balqis

After 2 painfull misscarriage, at last i manage to get pregnant again...(huhuhu).and this time i manage to carry the baby untill full term, 9 month.On April 11 I gave birth to a bouncy baby girl, Aina Balqis.

My previous 2 post sound very sad and unmotivated.That what i felt at that time.But this time im so happy with the new addition in our family.

Aina Balqis is the very beautiful baby.Me, safar and Najwa loves her so much.Since i had 2 angle baby previously...i become over protective to Balqis.Than My hubby told me, she is very strong and she is a fighter.Najwa also told me the same thing." she's not weak, she's strong mama".That s what Najwa told me.Than only I realize, Balqis is the fighther.She manage to stay with me in my womb for 9 month, than she manage to go tru the delivery trauma( its not easy for her to squeeze out from my womb).I no need to worry to much on her because she is the strong baby.


Let me share what happend on that day of labour.

Saturday 10th April.
I went to see my doctor for a check up.This time doctor told me that the baby already go down and already in the path for labour.So i need to go back home and wait for the sign of labour.on the way back, we drop by at the baby shop to get breast pump.Since i want to brestfeed my baby, i need a good pump.

I was so tired that day.It is very hard for me to walk since the baby's head pressing hard and feel like it gonna drop.(hahahah). At home i cant do much work and go to bed early.
3am I got up and go to toilet.After finish my toilet call, I lay on my bed and suddently...'pop' kebush!!!...my waterbag break.....yay!!!!its the time