Najwa is the greatest gift ever. The best thing ever happend to me. Demi anak , seluruh jiwa raga pun sanggup di beri orang kata. Dia still a baby, but she knows that mak and ayah loves her so much. Im not sure if she can understand what is happening around her...but what I know is...she enjoy every second of her life.
Im a clumsy person..buat apa pun mesti akan ada yang salah. My hubby is a perfectionist. So seems that he complete the piece of me. Apa aje yang aku buat..mesti ada yang tak betul..and people are waiting to 'hantam' me when ever i did any mistake. Im the type of person that always think that everybody is agood person. Like to help and easy to forgive walaupun cepat marah.Mulut saja yang laser tapi hati selembut lembutnye.
Selalu kena marah..kat rumah kena marah...kat ofis lagi la selalu kena marah. I feel pity for myself. I dont think that im really a bad person..but to much of scolding makes me to become a really unmotivated person.
I feel like im so useless...not good enaugh.Cepat terkejut and always try my best to please other people. People can see me as a very happy person.Always smile and happy. But deep inside im a lonely and terrified person trap in my own world.
Dont care what going to happend to myself , but other people must satisfied and happy. Willing to do anyting to help and pleased oter parties. But in the end im the one who will cry every night before i can sleep. I try to share my feeling with the person I closed to..but the best person to share my story always my mother. Since now im no more staying with her..I hide and ignore most of my feeling. Hope I can share something here
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